Mr. Big

In Sex and the City, (popular book and tv show) there is a character named Mr. Big.
He appears in the main character, Carrie's life and they have on again off again relationships. They ended up confessing their love to one another, and ladeeda.

I think I'm afraid to admit who my own Mr. Big is.

Only time will tell.

Manic Mara's Adventures

What an awkwardly good week.

I lost my hearing in my right ear for a few days..and got no sleep.. but..
I have overtime this week at work. $$$
I got a few numbers in my phone ;)
I'm going out for a drink tomorrow.
I have my best friend back. (Yay courtney)
I have my shift leader interview tomorrow. $$$

Good stuff.
Good night.
:D

Cake and Eat it Too

I was thinking about relationships tonight while at dinner with my best friend. We were talking about some serious topics and eventually fell upon our current single situations. It caused the gears in my mind to turn abruptly and start thinking about adulthood and how complex relationships have become.

A lot of people I know are going through situations where they either have great love-making and no relationship, or a great relationship with no love-making. (I know, Maranda is a big girl and can write the word sex, right?)

There are some women stuck in limbo with great guys who make them feel so good. When it comes to labels though, they are still single. Other women are in full-blown relationships with guys who would rather check their email than touch silky skin of their woman. Guys always want what they can't have, and women do this too. But is there a line to draw when emotions begin stirring? Is it safe to stay in a non-relationship relationship with all the sweet frosting? or should everyone grow up and realize you can't always skip the spongy, compromising, and complex base?

We aren't children anymore, and sex has been added to the equation for most. You'd think people would mature and consider eating the meal before the desert. Relationships are sometimes overwhelming when your plate is full of real-world drama. But how can we keep starving ourselves of love?

Past, Present, and Future

So Jason and I have broken up, but we're still friends. For real. He's helped me through a lot this past semester and I thank him for it greatly.

And now I've decided to list my plans...because you all care. :)

This and next year I want to stay away from caring so much about relationships. I need to focus on myself and school, raise my gpa.

After graduation, I want to move to New York City and either try finding a job immediately or go to graduate school for writing and editing.

There, that's it. :) I want to be a New Yorker.

-me